Like always. I’m having a bad birthday. Seriously, I wasn’t meant to be alive. Can I just die already?
I do want to die sometimes, but I know that if I do, I won’t be able to listen to new songs from my favorite bands, or get excited about seeing them live, or buying band merch at hot topic even if it’s just a bracelet.
I won’t be able to fangirl over all the new photos & selfies they take. I won’t be able to lay down & think about meeting them, I won’t be able to watch all these interviews like Bryan stars. I won’t ever have a chance at meeting the bands that have saved my life. I won’t get to hear Vic tell me I’m going to be okaay. These bands, are not just bands to me. These bands are what’s keeping me alive. I can never thank them enough for what they’ve done. They’re the reason I’m still smiling & I’m still here.
Got it earlier today c’: & I screamed for ten minutes <3 the documentary was amazing ;~; <3 so many feels.